Feeling: content

Watching: music videos (VH1)

Thinking: This song is cool (don't know what it's called, but it's the song from "Casino Royale" by Chris Cornell)

I'm really into DD. It is my favorite movie. That might change eventually. I am wishy washy. As of now, however, it is true. The way I feel when I watch it is similar to the way I feel when I read a Franz Kafka book. I can't explain it. Well I guess I kind of can. When I read Kafka stories, I feel that I so understand the characters and like I can relate to the way they feel and what they are going through, even if something strange is happening in the story or whatever, I still feel that way. DD is like that. Even though all these strange things are happening, I still relate to the characters and what is happening in the story. I feel closest to Donnie. I was like that. You know, I had friends in school, but I always felt like I was sort of on the outside. I mean don't get me wrong, I got along with my friends and talked to them and all, but I don't know. I never was able to really talk to people about the way I feel about things. So yeah, I just felt kind of out of place. Actually, I feel that way still. The point is that is what I see with Donnie and that's why I relate to him.

I was teased, like the way Cherita is, but never that badly, and I was never alone. I may have felt like an outsider, but at least I always had friends to support me. That is so important. I feel bad that some kids don't have friends. You need people to stick by you, even if you don't always feel completely in the loop.

So, that's all I can say about it I guess. It just speaks to me. I love it so much. I don't know what I would do if that happened to me. I mean, would I leave my room or would I stay? I don't know, because I don't know how I would feel, if I would even remember well enough to think that I could be in danger. Anway, I'm just rambling now.

Well I guess that's it for now.